I think I hit my second rock bottom yesterday. Out of a regular job for several months now, hit by an annoying flu, home for 3 days without going out, rejected for interviews, it’s November and I live in a Nordic country. Yeah…but of course it could always be much worse. Let me tell you about my first rock bottom experience one late afternoon in … Continue reading Rock bottom x 2
During the moments where I am clear and calm and not stressing and worrying about the next job or if I’ll get considered for an interview, I wonder, could this really be my life? Could I go to the gym a few times a week and stay for two hours exercising, stretching and take a long sauna? Are small glimpses of another life showing up?… Could … Continue reading A small glimpse of a different life
Back from Okinawa! what a trip. First time in Japan. It was a perfectly strange place to go for my 40th birthday. I mean a Latin/Nordic woman with her Kiwi partner in Japan. Gotta love the world we live in But really I felt illiterate! I couldn’t read and there were hardly any signs in the Latin alphabet (I mean not enough). This was new. … Continue reading 40, travels, routines and acceptance
Fiuu….it’s a hectic time for me right now. You know when you are 100% free from any responsibilities and work and you still feel that there are not enough minutes in the day to get done what you want to be done? well..maybe you do and maybe you don’t but that is where I am at right now. I feel like a blackbird flying around … Continue reading Overwhelm, shiny things, clarity, and my monk buddy.
Lying on my mat today, I was feeling extremely grateful. Grateful for my teachers, grateful for my colleagues, grateful for guided meditations and grateful for myself. You see, nobody came to my class today! nadie, ingen, zero. I could’ve just ignored it and gone to lunch, but something told me that I should embrace all the feelings I’ve been walking around with lately and just do a … Continue reading No shows, Kali, self-love, acceptance and extreme gratitude.