I think I hit my second rock bottom yesterday. Out of a regular job for several months now, hit by an annoying flu, home for 3 days without going out, rejected for interviews, it’s November and I live in a Nordic country. Yeah…but of course it could always be much worse. Let me tell you about my first rock bottom experience one late afternoon in … Continue reading Rock bottom x 2
During the moments where I am clear and calm and not stressing and worrying about the next job or if I’ll get considered for an interview, I wonder, could this really be my life? Could I go to the gym a few times a week and stay for two hours exercising, stretching and take a long sauna? Are small glimpses of another life showing up?… Could … Continue reading A small glimpse of a different life
“You eat everything at the same time” funny how some people say that about me. I ‘ve never really noticed that. I mean, If you get all the courses at the same time, why wait? I don’t mind having some dessert with my side salad. I woke up today, had my morning drink followed by coffee while listening to a hula hooper being interviewed by … Continue reading Unconditional self-love, trust, and accountability.
Back from Okinawa! what a trip. First time in Japan. It was a perfectly strange place to go for my 40th birthday. I mean a Latin/Nordic woman with her Kiwi partner in Japan. Gotta love the world we live in But really I felt illiterate! I couldn’t read and there were hardly any signs in the Latin alphabet (I mean not enough). This was new. … Continue reading 40, travels, routines and acceptance
Fiuu….it’s a hectic time for me right now. You know when you are 100% free from any responsibilities and work and you still feel that there are not enough minutes in the day to get done what you want to be done? well..maybe you do and maybe you don’t but that is where I am at right now. I feel like a blackbird flying around … Continue reading Overwhelm, shiny things, clarity, and my monk buddy.
Lying on my mat today, I was feeling extremely grateful. Grateful for my teachers, grateful for my colleagues, grateful for guided meditations and grateful for myself. You see, nobody came to my class today! nadie, ingen, zero. I could’ve just ignored it and gone to lunch, but something told me that I should embrace all the feelings I’ve been walking around with lately and just do a … Continue reading No shows, Kali, self-love, acceptance and extreme gratitude.
January 2019 was one of the most exciting and exhausting months I’ve had in a while. Preparing to teach my first ever yoga class and hoping people would sign on to my Slow Vinyasa Yoga, 10-week course. My free trial classes went pretty well. Some people signed up and I was thrilled. A small group of ladies, one of them my most loyal student and … Continue reading What I’ve learned from my first two months of teaching yoga
Yesterday I went from learning how to create a website, to writing content, taking some action, to fighting the doubt and fear monster again. Seriously, this is getting so old! I felt, low, sad, old and pale urggh! I had to go back to working on myself, this time by following some advice from Lindsay Mango and journaling about “the woman in your vision” and I felt so much … Continue reading A short one about fighting the old fear monster
Here I am back at work, two months have passed since we were getting poured on by the tropical rain, getting bitten by mosquitoes, experiencing new things, sharing and being fully immersed in nature. It’s amazing how seven days can have such an impact and fill us up with so many new experiences and feelings. How only four days can be enough to connect deeply with another human being … Continue reading Disconnect to reconnect, trust and bad margaritas
Late one evening in late December several years ago, I was searching for something, a practice one could start to calm one’s mind. As the search continued, I saw a video of a woman with the biggest ring around her. I clicked on it and after those four minutes, I was home. I had found my kind of meditation, well so I thought, I saw … Continue reading A plastic circle, a collage of memories and a second try.